my story
HERE'S HOW IT ALL BEGAN
waking up from a life that wasn't mine
Externally, I had an incredible, fast-paced life: traveling to gorgeous places, graduating from a top university globally, dating incredible men, getting highly sought after corporate jobs.
Behind the scenes, however, I was suffering from insomnia. Caffeine kept me awake during the day and sleeping pills kept me asleep at night.
Internally, I was under so much pressure to maintain this "perfect life" that I had never consciously signed up for. My soul couldn't breathe. My body rejected sleep. I could not cry for 2 years so I would need to google "movies that make you cry" to hopefully find some relief through shedding a tear.
Ironically, insomnia was my body's way to wake me up from my slumber.
My bodily wisdom was defying the identity I was trying so hard to build.
Little did I know – through my body – I was about to discover my life's purpose and rewire my core relationship patterns.
I was being signaled to create a life on my own terms
So I left everything behind (again) and moved to the jungles of Bali on a scholarship to study Indonesian Arts.
One evening, I was watching a stunning magenta pink sunset over the rice paddies in Bali, when it hit me: I had moved across the entire world in an attempt to…escape my internal "baggage". But here I was, sitting with my usual patterns, my fears, my beliefs.
By then, I had already explored all the healing modalities: talking therapy, meditation, yoga, plant medicine, psychedelics, retreats and workshops, emotional catharsis, and endless self-help books. You name it, I did it. But nothing seemed to create a lasting transformation. I was still stuck in financial scarcity and in the loop of attracting unavailable partners.